Yan Sheuw Ke

Imagine a scenario, you were being informed a bad news. Not as bad as your loved one’s death, but something bad enough that should make you feel depressed for half an year. You feel nothing. No emotional sadness. You clearly know that your reaction is wrong. However you just don’t feel as bad as you thought you should. Although there are a few tear drops, you ask yourself where is the rest of the water work? It is the fact that you weren’t shocked that’s terrifying you. You don’t feel anything is different. You feel like you can keep on going with your normal life as if nothing has happened. You don’t know when the sorrow will hit you or how harmful this loss is. Your friends try to cheer you up. You tell them there’s no need for that because you seriously didn’t feel that bad. But you know there’s something wrong. And then one day, your sorrow jump in front of you, impede you. You then realized how this loss has sunken into you. You feel like you have woken up from apathy while falling into another nightmare. You run through all your memories at night. Small pieces of the past start to pop in front of you, making you want to run away. But there isn’t anywhere to run to. You realized the only way to get over this grief is accept it and give yourself some time.